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Some Will Seek Forgiveness, Others Escape

Soon you will come to find out that the title of my post has nothing at all to do with my post.
Its the holidays, and as usual I just spend most of my time 'menyaka' at home.
and its the fasting month now, means less people at the basketball court etc etc.

On the uglier side of life, we have SPM yay (: Cant wait to get it over with seriously. Another thing i cant wait to get over with is NS ; National Service. Man is it going to be the absolutely "best" 3 months of my life! My blog seemed dead before this, but i guess things are looking better now.

Hmm ntg much else happening in my life, Except for HER. The one i cant ever seem to have. sighh if only she knew how i felt about her ); hmm maybe she does but she doesn't know to what extent. sigh life is just unfair. I sometimes feel like i shouldn't fall for her due to many unmentionable circumstances but at the end of the day, there's always this gap in my heart thats just specially for her that will never be filled by any other. Shes like the drug that I need to have, without her i feel just plain crappy. I should shutup now -,-

zasss

hm

apek

Time after time

Alot changes as time passes. But sometimes, no matter how long it has been, some feeling just never change. And maybe I'm one of the lucky ones who has feelings for this girl, feelings that can't seem to fade away even when I've tried to make them disappear more than once. Twice to be exact, but somehow those feelings just come back to me naturally. Hence, I think I really am stuck on youu ♥

sometimes after everything has passed, i just cant get over you, so i come back to you. You're like a drug to me (:

Running out of words to say

Well well, what can i say to you? You can be mad at me for a moment, and just totally be caring the next. I don't want this. I want something honest. If you like me then tell the world about it and don't hide your feelings. But if you don't please don't give me false hope. Just tell me what you want from me and things would be a whole lot easier.



I don't know what happened between you and me, but now we seem awfully difrrent. We used to be the best of friends, but i guess sometimes unexpected things can get into our way. You're still a friend to me, it just feels like we used to be way closer than this.

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hm yeah, well its been one hell of a week.
Holidays baby. and Puasa month
Happy fasting to my Muslim friends and I'll be waiting for my raya money (;

Update.

first i want to get this off my chest.

I try to give you everything you want. I asked you about something, do you fucking know what half the shit that comes out of your mouth is? You can say one thing here, but something that is totally diffrent to someone else. Make up your mind, I've walked away once, I don't want to do it again, that is if you still have feelings for me. I wish i knew what was in your head. Please just open up to me.



And to "you", you know who are. You called me your close friend? I cant believe how i told you all my problems but you can act so fucking diffrent when you're around her, you say you don't like her. And someone that has been with you your whole life, the way you are and the people around you say otherwise. I'm fed up, some people say its not worth losing a friend over something like this, especially a friend who i once considered my bestfriend. But let me say this, I am not losing a friend from my point of view, because a friend wouldn't do that to me. Fuck it, I dont need this shit.

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alright, so now that's that.
I think I'll be updating my blog more often now.
This is it for now. Not in the mood.